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Esther O'Keefe
Esther O'Keefe

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I am not a rockstar programmer

I'm a girl with anxiety.

I don't live and breathe the cutting edge of graphics technology. I don't know what that means. I know some things.

I don't know whether or not I can work independently. Sometimes I need help.

I don't know how to estimate and deliver. Sometimes things are confusing and I need time to understand them. Sometimes I need too much time.

I know how to explain technical things to non-technical people. But sometimes meeting new people makes me so nervous that I need to cry.

I do not have excellent problem solving skills. I spend most of my energy trying not to create problems.

I do not have strong math skills. It took me two and a half years to pass first semester maths at university. Then I dropped out.

I am not a trailblazer, I'm not a rockstar.

I'm a girl with anxiety. I'm doing my best.

Thanks.

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Same, homie. I can see you have some recent posts on your external dev site. Pleased you are still going. <3

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Mahima Singh

Very beautifully penned down. I can relate to each and every word very well. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.